Oh wow i'm so sorry

My dad died when i was 3. I saw pictures of it. Probably the most disturbing thing i've ever seen, and for a long time i had nightmares about it. Eventually my brain just blocked it out. Like i used to never remember my dreams, but i'd wake up screaming.
Now it's getting abit better, i remember my dreams sometimes, but not alot. But i've got prettty bad insomnia, i think it's from the night terrors.

Anyways, you are always going to miss your dad. and you probably know that, you just have to concentrate on the good. Why you liked him, the stuff he did, etc. And if you keep reminding yourself he's watching out for you, and he's in a better place it get's easier. Everything happens for a reason, and life has tests. This is just life testing you, and once you get through it you will be a stronger person. And everyday will get easier. You just have to accept that whats done is done, and concentrate on the good in life