I don't even know where to begin. Over the last year, I've felt so many things toward you that it's ridiculous. We became friends this time last year, and from the day I met you, I was instantly attracted to you. That scared me a little because I had never felt like that about anyone. The first time you smiled at me, my heart melted. As the summer went on and we grew closer as friends, I realized I wanted to be more to you than just a friend. I wanted to be your girlfriend, and I thought you wanted me to be that too. You made each day brighter, and I couldn't stop smiling whenever I was near you. When you hugged me, I never wanted you to let me go. I should have known that something bad was going to happen because I've never been lucky in love, but I hoped this time would be different. I hoped this time things would be different and I would get the guy. You told me you cared about me, but then you were suddenly back with her again. No warning, just a "hey by the way, we're back together." You flaunted your new relationship in fronth of me, then wondered why I was so distant with you. I explained why, and all you said is "someday things may change." You promised me we'd stay close, but you haven't kept up your end of the deal. You randomly contact me saying you miss me and want to see me, yet when we see each other in public, you turn and walk away without even saying hi. The way you've treated me since last summer has hurt me. You made me feel like I was special and that you cared about me, then you took it all back. You've told me you have doubts about you and your current girlfriend, then you change your mind and say you're completely in love. You have played mind games with me, and you broke my heart. But even though you've treated me so badly, I don't hate you. I can't. I've tried. I've had moments when I wanted so badly for you to change your mind and finally choose me instead of the girl who cheated on you and lied to you because you deserve better than her. But if you would rather have her then someone who would treat you like you deserve to be treated, I guess that's the way it's going to have to be. You loving her, her loving you, and me wanting so badly to hate you...but I can't because I still care too much...