When I was a kid my parents told me that I was strong for my age, and they still do. I don't know if it was to boost my self-esteem or if it was true. I am 16 years old and I am overweight, or at least I feel that way. I am 175-180 pounds and 5'8". My weight fluctuates between that quite a bit. I don't eat meat, I don't know why. I used to eat it all the time as a kid. Nothing happened in my life to make me stop, I just stopped. I eat a VERY, VERY little variety of foods. I eat pasta, and peanut butter toast. I used to play baseball for school, then I stopped. I am trying to think of the day when I changed all of the sudden. I do terrible in school, I get in trouble almost every day. I don't act like I do at home while at school. I don't know what is wrong with me. Every so often I think about suicide. Even as much as I believe it would feel so good to let all of my problems go away, I don't let myself go any further, because I know I can fix it, I just don't know how. I need to get myself stable, and I am horrified at the idea of telling my parents all of this, because they have no idea how I feel, and if they did, they would fall apart. I don't want to hurt them. If anyone can please help me on this, just any little bit of advice you can. I can only exercise inside because I am not allowed to leave my backyard, as my mom fears I will cause trouble. I am not trolling, and this is not fake, this is serious. I have posted in multiple forums and have been banned for trolling. PLEASE do not do that.