If you have the time, please read this and let me know if this letter is a decent way to get my feelings across. The names have been changed.

This is going to be really hard and take some guts, but I have to get it out since I care about our friendship a lot.
I think my own feelings towards you are getting too out of control that they're starting to actually hurt me. They're just too big for you to just be a boy I like (besides being my best friend.) I realized because it hurt me a lot that you ran up to Casey to dance with her for the slow songs after I comforted you. Well, I realize a lot of times, but I guess tonight was one of the biggest realizations. I wanted this to be one of our special memories (since it's my senior year of highschool), but you spent most of it with Casey. It would have just made everything better if you would have pulled me up there for more than just a song or two, or pulled me up there for one of the slow songs when you were hurt I think my conflicting emotions make some of the things I do and say seem ridiculous to you. (Like how I'm being ridiculous when i'm worrying about drifting.) I'm in love with you, Josh. And I really can't help it as much as i've always tried to. I'm always going to be. But I'll still always want to be one of your best friends, and i'll still want to be your bride's maid for you and Andrew's wedding. I'm sorry for all the times i've overreacted when my feelings toward you got the best of me. Like when we got in that fight the one time you were at Morgan's house, or when I was so afraid of you drifting. In the least, now you know why I act the way I do sometimes. So I'm stuck with some solutions that are all really painful. Solution 1.) I completely overcome my feelings towards you, and the only way to do that is to become very distant for a very long time (the way I overcame them with Samantha.) and if I'm lucky, we'll be best friends again down the road some years. Solution 2.) I live with the my confused heart that cannot follow mother nature's rules. If I do let my emotions persist i'll still be ridiculous, clingy, and overaffectionate without realizing it at the moment that i'm doing it.or Solution 3.) We become distant instantly because I told you all of this just now and you can't take it . Please don't let it be #3. Right now, I really need your help with choosing a path. I never want to lose you as one of my best friends. You just mean way too much to me. Help me do what's right.


I love you to death (in both ways)
<3 Kyra
I'm so sorry I had to end up feeling this way.
Can you blame me? You are truly an amazing boy.

Forgive me?