candymountain123

It's Christmas time. Full of joy, laughter, and love. NOT! Usually my holidays have been awesome. But this one has sucked. I'm fighting with my friends and worse than that it's hard to celebrate the holidays without my grandfather (he died September 7). For all 13 years of my life he's been there, but now that he's gone that saying, "You don't what you got till it's gone" is really sinking in. The family usually goes to his house on Christmas Eve to exchange gifts, but it will never be...

so, i have no idea what is going on in my life right now. one of my friends is getting mad at everyone then sorry the next minute but she acts all mad. she says she wants to be more "popular" so she barely talks to me anymore. she also got all mad cuz i made up with one of my friends i had got into a fight with (she had also gotten into a fight with her too) then she goes and says she doesn't completely trust me to not talk about her behind her back. and now i have no idea if i still want...

OK, so i'm sick of people of people always judging me!!! just cuz i'm overweight and aren't very hygienic doesn't mean you should just ignore me! when you really get to know me (very few people do) i'm not all that bad. people need to get over themselves. answer this: why do people get pleasure from other peoples pain not many people give me a chance and i wonder why because everyone (including me) is more than what meets the eye.

So, I don't really like my life a lot right now. My family is fighting, and I have like no friends. I feel so lonely all the time. Sometimes it even feels like I'm depressed. I'm sad all the time and really self-conscious. I just want each of my flaws to go away. Maybe then I'll enjoy life.