I don't know what to do, but moving on and forgetting is not an option because I can't. I think about this right before I go to sleep, on long car rides,during church- it's too big a thing to forget. I wish I had just been smart enough to get myself out of the situation but I wasn't. I feel so stupid. It has to do with this guy..lets call him Greg...well Greg is a total player and I always knew it.. we've gone to school togethher since I was lik 5 and you would think you could trust someone you've known for that long, but no you can't. If I think backhe started to do the little things during 8th gr being flirty and stuff, kissed me in a truth or dare game. But I never took Greg seriously cause he does that with everyone. Well, lately after graduation and stuff he's been more and more touchy but at first not in a bad way, I didn't really mind the attention and though I wish I could deny it I sort of fell for the player. But things went a little too far at the movies, he had his arm aroound me and he tried to feel me up! At that point I told him I'm not...lets call her Jenny(aka slut of the school he hooked up with)..and he left me alone but the one thing he said that night that bothered me was "I know your limits". It should be a good thing that I'm not a hoe that lets guys do whatever they want to her, but he said it in that I'm so superior than you way and kind of like a challenge. Oh I forgot to say that I never call this kid txt him we only really talked when life seemed to put us in the same place..Well lately there's been a lot less talking and more of him trying to push my limits.Well the next time I ended up in the same group at the movies he didn't really try anything too bad. It was comfortable and I he apologized for last time- though now I don't think he meant it. Just with that one "I'm sorry" I trusted him again..ughhhhh. Well two days later he ends up being at my friends house because he's friends with her brother. My friend and I decide to go in the pool so of course so does he. He had is arm around me as if we were such good friends just hanging out but thing got bad when we were watching the movie.. We got out of the pool I threw some shorts on, and my friend and I weere on the floor of her room cause we were still kinda wet watching the movie..of course he comes in and wants to see the movie too :/ but you have to understand that around him I can't even think straight and I trust him even though I know how he is with other girls. So were all there laying on the floor in our bathing suits and he starts to do the little things that really dont bother me like put his arm around me holding hands but that's the kind of stuff he starts with and he does worse and worse stuff. But in the moment it didn't seem that bad like it wasn't a big deal..yeah I must of known in the back of my head that it wasn't right but I was sick of being the girl who guys think is untouchable and undatable..It was my fault for not saying no, but he did stuff to me that makes me shudder everytime I think about it...It's not like we had sex in my friend's house eww gross plus I wouldn't have a problem saying no to that.. I won't until I say I do on the alter... anyway he felt, grabbed did all the stuff that now haunt me because I had never done anything witha guy before and HE KNEW THAT he knew my limmits.. he said it but he STILL TRIED and he won. Well no one can understand this my friends don't get it, why I would let someone I only see per chance do this stuff but they've never gone through this before they wouldn't know how it feels. When someone's been so close to you annd you have'nt said no yet..it would've been weird to have said no to that stuff..okay that didnt make sense.. what I mean is that once I got into the situation I didn't know how to get out of it. The worst thing--I'm going on a cruise with him in four days!! shit It's my quincenera cruise I'm not gonna let that kid be in my head the whole time..I've already wasted enough of my time on him. I need help on how to get over this..I want to confront him but what do I say so I don't sound stupid..technically I didn't say no that time so what the hell do I say? I can't just tell him off but I want him to know he can't do that stuff to me anymore and that he hurt me..I've cried too many nights over this and spent to many thoughts on this.Please if you've been in any situation like this I really need some help and I don't know who else to ask.
**after that day, 2 wks ago, he hasn't tried to im, txt, call me once so its obvious he doesn't give 2 shits about me**

Njord laughs too much to help. Sorry. Know that you have no limits, and stop fooling yourself into thinking you do. That's all you need to know.

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