im new, hey

however im not new to this kinda site. i had this great one, dead small met my best friend there, but well... he had lukemia, was almost past his recession period and it came back... he killed himself, shot himself in the head. happened about 3 weeks ago and i really need a community like that again, the site shut down ya see.

im an emotional wreck to the extent that if i even show a wisp of emotion i break down so no emotions are shown. im like a robot half the time.

i have a problem involving cyber sex... im not on here for that though... i went through a stage of doing it constantly. i had plans to meet with stangers for sex....then my bf came along. i've tried so hard not to go back on the sites.. but he keeps going away to the hospital and i find it hard to cope... there's no excuse i know i wish i didnt do it. i wish i could tell him how i feel.....


well.. sorry if this was a waste of time but i just needed to get it off my chest n everything

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Yet she does nothing
Fear controlling her every move.
Fear of pain , of loosing herself
So she does nothing,
And feels the pain
Of loosing something she never had.

I'm sorry about your friend, and I hope everything works out for you.

Oh wow, that's really sad.
We're becoming a pretty good community, if I do say so myself.

My best friend killed himself last year, so I kind of understand what you're going through, and If you ever need someone to talk to, I like to listen.

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thanks you guys.
y'all seem real nice n i appreciate the support. hope i can stay around here for a while and make some friends

*ding

[thats a smile btw]

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She sees herself reflected in another
Yet she does nothing
Fear controlling her every move.
Fear of pain , of loosing herself
So she does nothing,
And feels the pain
Of loosing something she never had.

I feel for you =]
It hard to cope with a loss and ofcourse we tend to do things that make us feel comfort temporarily whether good or bad ; all i can say is to confide with someone and just keep an open mind and keep your hopes high, just keep focused and dont keep whats bothering you held in .

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well i kinda am in the same situation ghostlyheartbeat but i didn't have a friend die my ex of 3 months who was my first and who i really loved well he started getting very controlling so i broke with him the first time and it lasted about 3 hours or so and then we got back together then the second time it lasted about 2 weeks and the third we haven't even talked to each other if we have it was being mean to each other so I'm in the depression stage still it sucks : (

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Njord will try not to be mean Boog.

Stop letting others control your emotional state. It's really pathetic how much you depend on this guy to be happy, and that 3 hour break up shows that. Get a grip please and find a way to be happy with yourself. GET A LIFE first off. No guy is supposed to be the center of your joy. You get a life, and then integrate a guy into it. You don't build yours around him. That even sounds pathetic.

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Wait...STOP! You met your best friend online? I don't understand. Is that what you are saying?

What the fuck? This shit you wrote is just all over the place.

i have a problem involving cyber sex

LMAO. Cyber sex= PHAIL.

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And I don't love like they do,
But I don't hate like they do,
Am I ever on your mind?

Come steal my heart.

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